Well, the good news is workers comp will pay for my surgery. The bad news is, I still have to have it. The next good bit of news is they can do it the non slice and dice way and my recovery time has been dramatically shortened. The bad news, they insist doing it under general anesthesia...and I insist they can do it either regonally or locally. I've done my research, if my doc is as good as everyone says he is, he can do it the way I want it done. Bill goes in tomorrow for his procedure. Ya'll pray for him please. Thats pretty much all for now. LIfe lately has been a delicate balance of what I want and what others seems to want for me. The curveballs in this game called life have come on fast and hard lately...it's time I hit a homer....though I'll settle for getting on first base.

SOmetimes I think we, as women, tend to forget a very powerful word. Yes, there have been magazine articles galore reminding us of this word. Yet, I read friends blogs and see that they haven't learned it any more than I have. We need to say, "NO!". There comes a time when we just need to let everything go. Tell your closest friends, "you know, I KNOW I owe you a Thank You card, but right now, I am so behind, I just thought I would tell you in person and hope you understand how behind I am." TRUST ME, if they are your true friends, they'll understand. The same can be said for school events that don't directly relate to your child's scholastic life, for parties on Friday nights when you just want your pajamas and a bowl of Ben and Jerry's, and yes, even for church on Sunday Mornings. Sometimes it's easier to just talk to God while you rest at home. I believe He listens regardless of my own location. I am trying to simplify my life right now. The stress is getting to be too much with family issues going on. ANYWAY...thats enough for now, I need to dress for work, though I will only be there an hour before I have to be at the Doc's office, then scurry back to work. Work is the next issue I am going to deal with. I am going to start taking a day here and there to just stay home....my boss will have a fit when I turn in my note asking for time off but, if she can make me reschedule my surgical appointments because they interfere with her HAIRCUT, then I can damn well have an afternoon off here and there. Right?? Someone tell me I'm right :)

Hey all, I know it's been awhile. I've had so many things just crashing down around me. My daughter has been disgnosed with depression at 14 and last weekend we spent in the ER. Bill has cysts growing on his right kidney and is also scheduled for a colonoscopy this Thursday. In December 2002 I was in a car accident and now almost 20 months later, I am going to have surgery on my shoulder as I have had a torn muscle this entire time. I am not sure as to when yet, depends on the workers comp folks ( I was on duty) I will be unable to use my arm a minimum of 3 months. I will miss between 1-6 months at work depending on how the surgery goes. This means a paycut as workers comp only pays 65 percent of my salary when I am out. It's been a hard last few weeks...and I just haven't felt like bringing everyone down with all my sh*#. I've enjoyed the stories and posts you've left on the boards and while I haven't posted anything I have prayed for each of you who've requested prayers and marveled at the talent the people on the boards possess. It was nice to escape to Merry Ole England, The Stables and everywhere else the BobWhites visited. If ya'll think of it, say a prayer for my family, we need it. Seems the enemy is at the gate...and I am finding it hard to keep the gate shut lately.