Okay....I'm finished with my temper tantrum, pity party now. I've just so had it with work...and with my teenaged daughter and finishing up the refi. I guess I was much more stressed than I realized.

My oldest will be 16 in December...and she's literally is making me insane. She is ditching classes, failing classes, smoking and just generally has a horrid attitude, especially with me. She is generally cruddy to Bill too...but she particularily hates me. She wasn't raised this way. She used to be sweet and helpful and loving. Now, I realize some of this is simple teenaged angst. But only some of it. I can say I didn't act this way. My Dad died when I was 12 so being the eldest, I tried to do what I was asked, when I was asked. I wanted things to be easier for my Mom. Kait is just being a snot. I lost my temper with her last Wednesday after a day from hell at work. i was beyond angry. I don't know what to do with her. We tried taking her to a psycologist/psychiatrist... what a waste of time that was. She either sat and stared and refused to speak or in one instance, the shrink told her to straighten up or we would kick her out of the house, have her arrested or have the police take her to school. Well, I won't throw my 15 y/o daughter away, no matter how tempting some days. She has done nothing to be arrested for...and the police have better things to do than take truant children to school. SOme days I just close my door and cry...it isn't very productive...but it's better than knocking her block off~

Not that I think it matters, but I just wanted to put down somewhere that I am through. It isn't worth it to me anymore. I'm tired of the drama, the fighting, the insincerity. I'm sick of it all. I am giving up...and I doubt it will matter to anyone...especially in the long run~ so if you don't see me around anymore....at least now you know.

Your Birthdate: July 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene. The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher. You are very responsible and capable. This is an attractive and an attracting influence. You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it. You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research. You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes. This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup. You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Went to the surgeon today. We aren't going to do the shoulder surgery as it would not help in any way, shape, or form. He finally ordered xrays of my neck...and that is the cause of the majority of my pain. I have bone spurs in my neck. They are beginning to fill up the cavity that my spinal cord runs through. They were very clear on the xrays, as were the shrinking spaces. For now, we'll wait and see. I have to use common sense in what kind of activities I participate in. No bungee jumping, horseback riding, skiing (water or snow) snow boarding, bowling(?) etc. Now granted, I don't particiapte in MOST of those activities.

The doctor wrote the report to workers comp that I am stable for now, but will need future treatment and to contact him at any time I feel worse or begin to have numbness or tingling. The worst care scenario is one in which I will have to have delicate back surgery at the C4, 5 and 6, taking out the bone spurs. I am going to choose to pray and believe in God's healing though. Surgery like that would scare the beans out of me.

To add insult to injury, one of my students pulled my chair out from under me today in class, just as I was going to sit. You'd think with all the "extra padding" I carry back there, it wouldn't have hurt so much! I'm sore......

Hooray, it's Friday! And Mother's Day weekend to boot~ We are going to go to Universal Studios again this Sunday, provided it doesn't rain. Yes, Rain. So Cal is getting hit with yet another storm system. We have one going through right now...and to be honest, I've had enough. I will watch the weather this weekend. I don't want to be caught in a shower (or worse) 120 miles from home for Mother's Day.

All the papers that we have to sign ahead of escrow came. I'm getting them notarized today. My girlfriend's husband is a notary...so it won't take long for me to get it all finished. I'll turn them back into hte title company on Monday...and the loan should close 2 weeks after that. I feel so realived.

Today my class will be busy. We're making Breakfast in Bed for our Mother's Day gifts. Today the muffins get made, the butter gets shaken and the flowers prepared. I'm glad I found this idea online. I needed a new gift idea. I currently rotate 2 other projects for Mother's Day gifts and this is the easiest one yet.

Not anything exciting going on here. Just work and home. I live "such" the interesting life, dontcha know~

IT came, it came~The appraisal is in, WOW who knew the house would be worth so much now? All of the bills are gone, cept ONE payment to the mortgage company, and the amount of time lowered on the mortgage too....doing the HAPPY dance...no more bills, no more bills, no more bills~~WHY YES, I AM EXCITED...DOES IT SHOW?? Equity is a GOOD thing!

And yes Aleta, I DID read your articles you had posted regarding credit. Part of the reason we did refi. When we bought the house it was on a ARM that adjusted every 6 months, and for awhile that was a very good thing. We were paying ALOT less on the house then we had anticipated for the first 5 years...but as interest has gone up, so has the payment on the house, though not to the proportions as the couple in the articles, we had no seconds or anything...just a few credit cards. We've been "good" and quit using them. They will be shredded, save the one I'm freezing, so as not to ever run them up again. We'll cancel the newer accounts...but the ones we have a long established association with, that shows our timely payments, we'll just "place on hold". Not to use, just to show a good credit line with...and maintian a high FICO score.