I can't believe how much a fool I am and have been. I placed the one thing I hold most dear in jeopardy. I won't go into details except to say I was very, very wrong and I need prayers. Maybe one day I will get the courage to write here what I did. Until then, my mind is in turmoil...my heart is pounding...and all I can do is smile and let everyone around me think I am the same person that I have always been...cheerful Charly....dependable Charly.....responsible Charly. What rubbish...what lies.....what a mess I have made of my life~