Is it ever going to end?? I thought after I had made it through the first 24 hours that it would all be easy...WRONG ... I have broken out in hives and look oh so attractive..(NOT) I am feeling so sick to my stomach and i was warned NOT to throw up...yeah right. SOmehow though I have managed to keep it together and am awaiting Tuesday morning with great abandon. Not that I can hug or kiss my family, the kids in my class or go to a movie theater or church. NO, I have to stay at least 4 feet form everyone for 2 more weeks. Basically I have decided to stay in my daughters room at night and am going to minimize exosure to them as often as possible. I miss my family though, especially Bill...and I miss my pets...I have a new kitten, Milo, and I doubt he will remember who I am. My dogs, especially Jack, sit outside the window of the bedroom and whine for me. Jack even climbed up on the hot tub and pressed his nose against the glass...I think he wanted a kiss on his nose...thats how I greet him when I come home.

To top it off, Bill, Beverlee and Scott have all come down with either tonsilitis or just a bad sore throat...maybe it's good I am in isolation. With my immune system not currently working properly, that would be just what I neeeded.THey are all going to the docs tomorrow

Thats about it from Radiation Central. I've left with sleeping (alot) as there is only so much to do in a 12x14 foot room...

TTFN....

I have officially been in isolation for 24 hours. I have read everything, watched enough tv for a year, played online and all I have left is the NC State football game on the computer. It's almost halftime and they are of course kicking Western Carolina's asses. SCore is 28-7 and they JUST scored that 7. Next week is the Wake Forest game and I am HOPING it will be televised on ABC. Always nice to see as well as hear the game.

Joshua is fine, turns out I wasn't the only one worried about him...his parents hadn't been able top get ahold of him either. Turns out he left his phone at his parents home, off and couldn't come back due to work to get it. HIs home phone is also the business phone and is only used for an extreme emergency. So it's cell or no. He is having surgery very soon. I have 2 and a half days left... I'm not sure I'll make it...never realized how much I take the human touch for granted.

WOOO HOOOO State just scored again 35 to 7...they should just be polite and call it and not embarrass Western Carolina any further...lol

And so it begins. It has been three hours since I went into isolation and I am already bored as "sh--" I've already read 4 of the magazines I had set aside, and watched all of my "fave" shows. Joshua hasn't called so I am worried on top of everything else. Actually, I think my worrying is whats making it so hard, I haven't heard from him in 3 days. I know he has heard back from his doc regarding the latest CAT scan and I know it isn't going to be good news, but why the hell do men do this. Shut themselves off from the world and internalize it.. Jesus, there ARE people who care and want to help, share or just plain be there for them. GRRRRRRRRRR

I'm done for today, maybe a few drinks are in order?? I"ll just sleep the weekend away

I LOVE my job!

Teaching kindergarten is all about life's discoveries, the way a child's face lights up when he or she "gets it". Kindergarten is new Crayons and fresh Play-Doh unsharpened pencils and unused erasers...it's about the potential that is bottled up just waiting for someone to pull the tab and let it all bubble to the surface. It's about hugs and skinned knees, tears when their parents leave and "Do I HAVE to go homes" at the end of the day. Kindergarten opens a world full of hope and dreams, fresh scrubbed faces and paint on their favorite dresses. It's about never giving up and trying even when you think you'll never be able to accomplish anything. Children in kindergarten look at the world with rose colored glasses even when someone pulls them off and steps on them. But the best thing about a kindergartener is, within 5 minutes, they have forgiven and forgotten.

Wouldn't the world be amazing if more of us acted like "KINDER"garteners???

I had written an entire blog post, and somehow I manged to lose it...POOF~~

They say bad things come in three's. I hope whoever "they" are they know what they are talking about. First Josh's cancer returns, then my thyroid and now his Dad needs surgery. THAT'S ENOUGH. Josh was joking with me and he decided he would come over this weekend and absorb the radiation I am putting out to cure his cancer... if only it were that simple.

Bill (DH) has told me to consider my time isolated from everyone as a vacation...um....HELLO? Vacations are taken on the Mexican Riviera, you know, warm sand, blue water, hot men in itty bitty swim suits and margaritas...not holed up in my daughters bedroom looking at posters of the teen dream de jour. I don't know what he was thinking! Actually, I can guess, he's thinking, that he is "stuck" with the kids for 3 and a half days. LOL Yeah well, welcome to my world Honey.

All is not lost however. I will have my cell phone(--661-345-7937 case you want to chat on Sunday) and my laptop. I get to listen to NC State's first game of the season (GO PACK!!!) with no interuptions, I'll have a television, a stereo and a pile of magazines and no brainer romance paperbacks. Yeah, I know, ewwwww, but I can thrown them away after I am sprung and not feel guilty as I paid a quarter for each at a library book sale. I am also hoping (expecting) that there will be a few brilliant new Trixie chapters for me to read.

Oh and as to the post below, I tried to let everyone know that I am a PROTECTOR...but somehow I reeally screwed that one up...I can't remember how I used to post those quizzes.

That's it for now, I really need to start going to bed at a "normal" time

I found a new quizz, but it isn't working....I'll try again when I am awake...

Wasn't I supposed to go to bed??

Oh wait...IT WORKED!!!!

I know, I know, I neglect my blog...my bad! Things aren't going all that well for me. I am having a radiation treatment next week to kill my thyroid. Thats why I was so tired (and a bit grumpy) at Trixie Camp. My heart problems are all connected to this damn thyroid....

Course the treatment sucks completely. I have to be isolated for 3 entire days away from everyone and everything...Anything I use ala books, magazines etc has to be thrown out after or doused in bleach...basically I get to watch tv for days on end...YUCK!

You know I am not sure anyone reads this blog...if you do, let me know at Dawnsmail@iwon.com....thanks

Oh MY, I didn't realize it had been a month since I posted. Where has the time gone? I know where I've gone. I spent a glorious 4 days at Trixie Camp. I met so many wonderful people. We visited the Grand Canyon, Meteor Crator and spent many hours laughing and giggling. Didnt sleep all that much as Gabi, Rachele and I just kept whispering in the dark. I so look forward to next year...and yes, I know I didn't cover the tripinany detail, but I figure you;ve all already heard about it.

I go back to the docs tomorrow so they can give me my test results. He gave me several ideas as to what might be wrong with me and I didn't like 2 of them very much at all. Here's hoping ( fingers crossed)

It's lateandI am too tired to write much more, but, I will not be away so long this next time.

Ya'll come back later and Iwill have said a few more things.